if i had known it was the end would i have done any different?<

i'm thoroughly convinced

that

i've never loved anybody more

& all to no avail.




i'll probably start blogging every day again once school starts back up. it's been hard to find moments for myself recently. i'm surrounded by friends all the time. to tell the truth i feel a bit suffocated. but in a good way.

why hello.

i never have time to blog anymore.
apologies.
i haven't forgotten.
i still care.


my friends just have a habit of never leaving me alone.


not that that's a bad thing.

new boy in the picture. but he's a secret.
still in love with J?

sometimes in life you just need handpuppets.

vacation was nice.
because i live for dealing with family dysfunction and excessive amounts of fatty foods and soda.

just kidding, i wanted to shoot myself.



i've been back in town for about 28 hours now.
i got home, started to unpack, and then J came over and we had our little reunion... yeah.

then D came and the three of us went to get pizza & ice cream. came back to my house, played candy land. then D took me to M's house, where we filmed stuff, colored in the dark, watched bad stand-up, ate really good teriyaki noodles, etc.

this morning, M & i walked over to K's house, and the three of us proceeded on a very pleasant bikeridng adventure. then K & i went swimming.

came back to my house, and started to plow my way through the mountain of laundry that is taking over my bedroom floor.


life's good summer's good i'm good.

i will probably blog about the new J situation later. exciting.

escape by the water, not sick of it, it only gets harder.

i skipped a day.

yesterday was not bad.
K came over, and i made her a cd.
J and i went on a walk. nothing special. sat at a construction site by the lake, and on the way back we saw an owl in a tree.

i've decided that he can be one of my dearest friends, if i can just get over this stupid crush on him.

the big scary pit bull that lives on my street, and always tries to eat me & J, got taken away today, for eating someone's cat. welcome to the ghetto.